It’s a freezing evening in Liverpool, I had to change my path for a moment to buy some food and then I saw what I thought it was my worst nightmare, I saw THEM.
Going up to Sainsbury’s to buy some veggie mince and red wine, dark evening, then I saw those blue pair of vans and your hidden face with a coat and your glasses. I saw then that person I was so afraid of seeing right next to you, didn’t pay attention on her face, just could see that fluffy and messy hair, all so messy and like a big crown on that head.
Nothing else mattered at that moment, I just wanted to carry on with my shopping and then see my friend, that warm and cold heart that always supports me and cheers me up with some sweet and nasty words. I just wanted to keep on smiling and not thinking about what I had just seen.
Then I threw back to December last year, and then January and then February this year, which were the months I had everything and plus your arms around me, and that’s all I cared about, but this year, December is different. It feels like a thousand knives in my chest, slowly, patiently destroying every fragment and veins that still exist running my blood all over my body. I felt everything at once but then I was still smiling.
It’s just not a fake smile anymore, I actually can feel some happiness inside of me.
I had a nice dinner at my friend’s house, played games, laughed out loud, good talking, great smiles, great moments.
Came back home and felt that cold again, and then I realized it was not just me. And after that all I still have a bed as warm as my body.
I saw that woman, seating in front of Tesco, freezing, cold wind, cold evening.
Came upstairs, made a nice cup of hot chocolate, very sweet, all the sweetness I could put into it, got my scarf, went back downstairs, crossed the street. Gave it to her.
“Awwww thank you, it’s so lovely, listen, when I finish, I’ll put the mug at your door for you.”
She was still worried of giving the mug back to me and she doesn’t even know me, but she was so greatful that it made my heart even warmer than it already is. And I said:
-Don’t worry, you can keep it.
-Yeah, just enjoy some hot chocolate, it’s a cold night, have a good one.
Came back upstairs and my mind was already asking me to write about it.
It was a tough night, it was. But I’ve got my warm heart still inside of me…
And someone has got its sweetness in a mug with hot chocolate on a freezing evening.
Don’t worry about how cold some hearts can be, and how worthless people can be. Some of them won’t pay attention to your heart anymore and will decide to carry on with any ramdon little thing.
Don’t be anyone’s “distraction”.
Distraction means you’re the sweetest downfall that someone can’t handle because you warmed their hearts too much so they could see stars everywhere.
“It’s not about what the world brings to you, it’s about what you bring to it.” – Anne With An E
Give your sweetness to people who are not too distracted by you.